Thoughts

Oh How I WONDER If
My desires well ever be fully controlled. I see him,  and desire wyd at he represents.   My memories are the deep pleasures fulfilled time and time again.   I don't have regrets or curiosity anymore from him.  Just wonder if my desire will ever be over or if it's mutual.  I met hid eyes as he looks when I do but I don't push any envelopes as to where to go with those eyes. 

I wonder if the last time was the last time or if the next time if the last time.  Or if just time will clear out my concern wholly.   I spend little but enough time with him on my mind.   Not lusting just wondering about him.   Going to have to give myself a new project with healthy thoughts as Smokey just isn't so.