toxic

When did our love become so toxic? When the words of your mouth spit eether? Or the thoughts of my own lava flows with the ending results silencing you? 

Toxic.  The pain the hurt the years the hours the days...when did the love get so toxic to where I can not see the love at all? 

I can not tell if your actions are habits...or habits are actions?  Not confused just toxic...thoughts....glances..no touches..comforts.. just space between us...filled with toxicity.  

I do not know how to get through anymore.  Just anger in the way.

In my heart is you.  In my eyes are your eyes. In my hands are sketches of memories where your hands could be. Arms use to.  Now...just as cold as the original ice age.

Watching you sleep next to me unaware of anything not a care....

Just isnt fair.