It tskes life to get me writing again. Today i said bye to my uncle and saw who has always been remembered as my very first friend. I will never understand where death comes and how it goes to level after level of surprising us each time even when we say outloud that eventually it comes for us all? A piece of me died again. I wanted to reach out and hug my friend. I saw her eyes and felt so proud. Woman Boss Mother Executive Sibling Friend...honestly she is all the Ohs I am not and I liked it. It gives me more to reach for while realizing the reality it isn't attainable for me.
Her ever after has been a long time coming. Thats a way to see the circle complete. I am writing again. The desire was so strong to reach out to my once only friend. Not a day didnt pass where I didnt compare something to what we did together even in the hours where we lived most apart. And that is more speaking freely from my heart.
Which...is why I am writing again. Today I said bye to my Uncle. Today I locked eyes yet not embraced touched held nothing... examples of not being there to my once first and best friend.
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