I MISS YOU

I miss you more as the holidays draw nearer.  Im not sure if its your voice or maybe your smile but its you.  I miss planning and plotting to see who can out gift the other. I miss all the laughter and surprised faces too. Now i feel like a part of me is missing as more years pass and i am trying to move forward.  Gosh,
I
Miss
You.
I thought for sure wed be happier together.  I didnt ask for much...did i ? As long as you love me...was my real demand.  Not every song reminds me of you so i am getting better.  But some songs...just do. 

I
Miss
You.
I want to be happy for you.  I want to i do. But that want isnt in my will...leaving a lie.  I cant be true to me by being honest saying i want what was mine for you with someone else.  

My heart is broken.  Still.  I Miss You. I still do.