Chapter 2021

 My where has the time gone?  Maybe just maybe... I left too.

Requirements 

Time Jump

      The imagery of my daughter lying, hurting, in pain.  Nothing I could do, but wait for the doctor to continue to try to bring her back to health.  In the moment, 196 felt like a firing range, while being suffocated as on lookers watch and laugh.  Twenty two years of protection details from dances, play dates, activities all were pointless as the very pressure of her blood worked against her.  Prayer texts out...check.  My own prayers lifted, check check. Speek with those in charge.. all check boxes covered, yet I felt empty and powerless.  

       I do not know when the tables turned but they did. Days passed, with no change.   

In the moment, it was all that it could be. In the moment, so was I.

The Words Unsaid were the Loudest

Learning more and more the importance of leaning on the Lord i stead of self, hearing His words instead of my own. 

Life, while we live, is always teaching lessons.

The constant in life, is change. 

The teacher really is not what you expect.   The Lord, through the tears you do not cry, or the formed words not said, speaks loudest, when you ...do not.

I did not know my own strength, until I realized it is nothing if not dependent solely on the Lord Jesus Christ.

Making the days not necessarily brightest but steps definitely ordered with the comfort of knowing where to is lead by Him.

I did not prove any points or finish any thoughts. This time, I held my peace, cried on the inside and let the comfort come from the Lord.

E.S.R.