I realize I'm not angry. I am hurrying to get past the pain. It's not working because I'm not committed to letting go. The anticipating of the events where we are all, gives me anxiety. Maybe it's control that I'm Lakin but inside I feel my pride heavy any cracking.
Not even my prayers are loud enough for me to say clearly. I just hope that the Lord is carrying me. It's my time that has been waisted because of the lack of love the lack of respect...
I must admit that I miss you. Big gap without you.
